I’d choose you in every lifetime and I wish you felt the same way. Maybe it’s how this was all supposed to unfold. Maybe the universe in your eyes is all in my head. Maybe one day I’ll move on from the pangs that rip through my chest when I think about it for too long. Laughing silently. Closing out girlhood. Proving to you that I’m okay. I’m well. I’m doing just fine. Golden like the sun on the morning we met. Don’t go too far or else I’ll wander in directions that lead down dark paths. I wish you weren’t my light, but every time I see you it’s like a beveled diamond catching sunshine. I promise to stay in a space where you can love me freely. Where friendship lasts eternally. I’ll keep the hurt tucked behind my eyes where tears never flow. Scurry away to lick my wounds when I need to. Numb it with prayer. Try for a better ending. -AMT ©️