I felt violent from the pull. It made my heart collide with my rib cage and I wonder how I’m still breathing.

What’s the saddest moment you’ve ever experienced ?

If you need to think for too long then you’re lying. You’re a roadmap with no stops. You’re a blank sky. You’re vast like the sea. To be as free as that would mean feeling nothing at all. And sometimes I wonder how numb I’d let myself get if I had such power. Turn off the hurt and let it bite back at someone else. Put my fangs away because the fight is over. Let my bones rest. Fill my brain with fog until it’s polluted with nothing. Fall in the endlessness and not care.

But then the dullness would take over and I wouldn’t understand why your hands make me smile. I wouldn’t bloom with purpose. I wouldn’t climb mountains for everything I fought for. And that’s worth something. That’s worth every pang and loss and tragedy. That’s worth the saddest moment. -AMT